Well shit...

It's been a long time since I've written anything, I sometimes write little notes here and there to myself but I think that I need to start writing my feelings out again.

2017 my goal that I've had for years and years is to lose weight and find myself again. Last week I had an extreme breakdown where I just wanted to give up on everything but I can't because I have an amazing little boy who needs his mommy. I'm just so tired of failing and not following through with anything, I need to be strong and I need to be the best mom I can be!
I'm working on going low carb to help with the pcos and diabetes, I'm not looking to to be a size 2 but damn to be a size 10 I couldn't even imagine, it's been at least 15+ years since I've been there...
Starting weight 230 wearing a size 20 pants and XL to XXL I'd love to be down under 200 by summer, which gives me 3 months 10 pounds a month... Wish me luck!!