... UGH.... one of those days...

So today started out good I found a new scale and I went to my sisters house and played w/ my nephew and Bella and watched my friend Kam get belly shots... then I came home and I found out my sister is pregnant.... again... It is just so hard she already has two kids that are a handful and she is pregnant again and yet I am still not. It just suck I have nothing I have no career, I don't own a house, I cant have kids, I cant afford to adopt... I just hate living life sometimes and right now is one of them... I am so numb...

Today is the day... day 8

So I havent written in awhile but I am back!! I had a really stressful weekend :/ I dont know what is wrong with me but I am having problems with my scale one day I am way up the next way down... or the oppisite. I dont know what to do it is so frustrating. Life has been good lately I had the best Chicken for dinner tonight I cant believe how much I ate... But I had no rice or anything else w/ it just cucumber! We will see what the scale says tomorrow... TATAA