PCOS...

I was reading and they said you should write about having PCOS and what it means to me and things..
So I have PCOS (Polly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) The symptoms I have are very lame.. I have a really hard time loosing weight but definitely not gaining... I am always extremely tired, I get depressed easier then most, I have thick darker hair on my body.. I don't ovulate like normal females.... you name the problem that is associated with it and I have it. It has been a struggle for many years with self image. I became anorexic so guys would notice me and they did... then I fell in love and it was not only with Chucky it was with food.
There is something really weird in my head where I talk to my inner monologue a lot... I am very good at making excuses and talking myself out of things... or into things.
I again have stopped my diet and for no apparent reason and trying to get back on the wagon is not an easy task. I have contacted an acupuncturist and I think I am going to start doing that this upcoming week. I really hope that it will do something for me!
I need to start making the time to figure me out, I spend so much time thinking about work and it is time to start thinking about Chucky and I and what we want out of this life...
I am excited to go on vacation and I plan on doing a lot of soul searching, and planing what works for me. So wish me luck and I will try to get back into writing my journal so I can track what I do not just in my head but on paper... well not paper but you know!
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